Cuff Me to the Bed

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I discovered I feel perfectly happy cuffed to a bed on my knees this weekend with the cuffs above.

“Don’t Move” Said Anna. Followed by a smack across my arse. Not enough to hurt, not nearly close to my pain tolerance but a shock. At that angle holding still was really not easy but I managed, feeling myself tremble from the effort.

Annas hands running over me, listening to her banter back and forth with Arthur, how much she liked me cuffed there, what she would like to do to me and Bemoaning her lack of cock to fuck me with. While the position was not ideal (balance practice is needed) I was utterly blindingly turned on! Even the process of putting on those cuffs was a turn on, a mix of anticipation, a tiny bit of nerves/fear and a whole lot of “oh fuck yes” I wasn’t even properly aware was there.

Earlier they had played with me between them, Arthur behind me, pressed closed, hand on my throat holding me still, Anna pressed against me, describing the rope harness she wanted to tie me in, I lay still, so still listening eyes closed feeling incredibly turned on but peaceful. My natural sarcastic shield gone, no witty comments or comebacks, Just lying silent taking in the sensations on my skin from hands and mouths.

Handing control over and letting go turns me on insane amounts. Being told that I am going to be taken, used, enjoyed and there is nothing I can do about turns me on more than being told that sexy or beautiful. Being told I am sexy makes me feel awkward. Being told that they want to fuck me, that they are going to use me, make me scream on the other hand makes me feel sexy.

I am predominately submissive in bed, it is on rare occasions that I feel dominant at all, usually with Anna. I think because she is less able to physically overpower me.

I loath that my body is not as strong as I would like it be so I can take the kind of throwing about I fantasize about. I like a hand around my neck (holding not squeezing) I love having marks left on me and being spanked well. But I would like to be tossed across the bed, slammed about, held down without fear of injury.

As I mentioned in What I want I am still coming to terms with this part of my sexuality, I know I enjoy it and it is definitely something I want to explore more fully. The feeling of rightness I got from Anna cuffing me to the bed is something I really really want to feel again over and over.

I love that I am learning to trust myself as much as my partners that I can explore this side of me more and more. Defining Delilah is turning out to be more than just defining who I want to sleep and in what context but how I enjoy my sexuality in general. 

Being me sometimes just rocks! 

Delilah!